Naomi

So doing some serious shopping to update my wardrobe, new trousers, lots and lots of new tops, more jewellery, new shoes etc etc, i will let out my true goth lol!

Rant!!!

 Right I am always so thankful and greatful for any gift I get at christmas. I say thank you when their first given to me before I can open then, then I make sure to say thank you once i’ve opened them.

Is it wrong that I would like a thanks from people that I get gifts for? I work really hard to get them nice gifts…….and I don’t even get a thank you

I simply wont bother next time

serotonin- asked: Basically I think you are wonderful.
You have changed how I see myself and you give me faith and hope in every day things.
You are amazing and I'm lucky to have you as a best friend, you help me so much and you really know how to look after me.
How are you feeling today and what'd you think of Jackass 3D? <3

The only reason I make you feel good is because you simply deserve to feel wonderful. I love you so much, you are simply amazing in every way and i am so thankful to have you as my best friend.

I fucking loved the film!! I want it again lol! and I’m ok just kinda getting tired, but don’t want to sleep, you?

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carpeomnes:

Promise. 

(Source: serotonin-)

Valentine

Chapter 3 ♥ Love is a Battlefield

Eddie followed me around like a lost puppy dog. He was interested in everything about me; my sword, where I got my training, even my outfit, to which I just replied, “I like it.” I was such a mystery to him and he seemed to feel the need to know everything, but I wouldn’t tell him my history. It was my history; he didn’t need to know it. All that mattered was who I was today. I preferred to keep my humiliating past to myself, and if I saw Hojo, I’d take out my vengeance; not just for me, but for Vincent. I know that they had killed him already, but I wanted my fair share of beating him to a pulp.

A lot of the kids at camp were curious about me. They all eyed me suspiciously, and my looks intimidated them. Chiron decided it would be okay for me to stay, though he was hesitant.

I was at Camp Half-Blood for a long time; a few months, I guess you could say. Chiron always kept a watchful eye around me, but Eddie didn’t seem to want me to leave; I didn’t want to leave, either, to be honest. It was fun here. I was able to train my heart out; no pun intended.

When they played capture the flag, I was invited to play by the Ares kids. I flashed a smile at them, something that I hadn’t truly done before I had gotten here, since the whole Vincent/Hojo/Lucrecia thing, and agreed to join their team. I would be against Eddie, my new sort-of close friend, me only saying sort-of close because I still haven’t told anyone much about me at all. Eddie didn’t care, though; I could tell by the way he looked at me that he liked my mysterious traits.

Clarisse La Rue, one of the Ares kids that didn’t strike me as the gossiping type at all, had pulled me aside before the match.

“Now, don’t go hurting Eddie’s feelings,” she said. “He lost his girlfriend a few months ago, they found traces of poison in her system. He seems to be forgetting about her thanks to you, but if you hurt him… he’s fragile right now. That’s all I’m saying,” she instructed, and handed me some armor. “Here. You’ll need this.”

I smiled. “Thank you, Clarisse, for both the advice and the armor,” I went to grab the armor, “but I’m afraid I must decline on the offer for the battle gear. I can make due with Minotaur, thank you. As for Eddie…” I sighed. “I have no intentions of hurting him. But I never know when I’m on the move. Saving the worlds one at a time, y’know?” I winked, Minotaur flashing into my hands, surprising her a bit at how easily I could swing it around in my hand, despite its heavy weight, as I walked away and ready for battle.

Eddie and I locked eyes from across the woods, seeing who would dominate the battlefield. A smirk was on both of our faces, mine more visible since I opted out of wearing armor. Everyone wondered how I would do it, but I figured I would show them.

They let out a battle cry at Chiron’s signal, and they charged.

Eddie went straight for me.

He thought he had me, but I was quick. I used a technique an old friend Eric had taught me, jumping straight through the air, soaring up, kicking off of a tree and landing in one of the highest branches. Eddie looked up, in awe, as he fought the others, but I was still his goal. I leaped down, running back behind the trees, knocking anyone who would dare try to come near me out of my way without a thought.

I dashed back into the scene, easily putting many off their path. And, the best part was, there were other well trained people trying to get me off of mine; it was fun. I haven’t had this much fun since I had hung out with Sora and Jose, Sora with his hilarious antics and Jose trying to get him to be reasonable even though Sora always knew what he was doing.

I stumbled across the flag without even intending to, or realizing it, until Minotaur flashed away. I looked around, no one near by at the river, so I took a casual stroll up to the flag, keeping myself aware of my surroundings. I knew it wouldn’t just be this easy.

I was right, since a giant splash of water came over where I was standing; Minotaur came back, and I barrel rolled out of the way of the water, which tried following me, but I had hid beyond it’s limits. I saw Eddie, standing there, guarding his flag, trying to find me. I stealthily climbed down the tree, crawling across the perimeter of the woods as to not make a sound, the steel on the bottom of my combat boots silent as I was kneeling, crawling across like a cat. I rolled out, meeting Eddie with Minotaur. We circled each other a bit, swords pointed at each other, until I was in front of the flag.

He swung first, and I blocked with ease, Minotaur half as long as my own height. I was then the one to swing at him, pulling battle strategies this world clearly hasn’t seen before, since he was always surprised as to what move I would pull next, barely knowing how to block the strikes.

As our eyes met, crimson on sea green, he managed to get a hold of my sword with his own, swinging down as to disarm me but not doing such. I had no clue as to what he was doing, but he took a few steps closer to me. I shot him a look of confusion, and the confusion turned into absolute shock.

He dropped Riptide, and Minotaur fell to the ground, flashing away before it could hit. Our lips wouldn’t move, and our hands found each other, his on my face, mine on his neck. It wasn’t something I had expected to enjoy, and I don’t think he expected to have such a good reaction out of me from it. But, it was official now, and I couldn’t run from it at this point.

I had completely fallen for Eddie Scott.

I feel I’m getting worse, and the doctors can’t see it. So I wont get help to stop me from crying myelf to sleep 5 out of 7 nights a week. Shaking when I don’t do the thing that helps. Not attempting because I don’t have enough of what I need to attempt

I can’t be worse though, I have to be strong for the person I care about so much, because things are really bad for them now. I have to help keep them on a nice level, I need to get over myself, I just wish I could.

I’m scared I’m going to continue falling, and not be able to help the people I care about

Valentine

Chapter 2 ♥ Undisclosed Desires

He took me to what was called the Poseidon Cabin, where it was just he and I. He said it would be the ultimate place for privacy, since he had the cabin all to himself. It was decorated beautifully, a very “Under the Sea” sort of vibe to it. My friends in Atlantica would have absolutely loved it. Mechanical seahorse looking things hung from the ceiling, and a beautiful fountain with fish and coral was at the back. The walls had a light glow, similar to abalone.

“Why did you call this place a world?” Eddie asked, sitting down on the only bunk that looked used. I took a seat on the bunk across from the one he was on, smiling at the pretty setting.

“There are many worlds,” I explained, “and this is just one of them. It seemed especially connected to two other worlds though, Olympus being one of them, and the other one my ship was having a weird time reading. It said it was called Earth or something like that.”

Eddie smiled. “What are they like?”

I was glad that he was interested; it was good to know that someone wanted the knowledge. “They’re all different. Midgar, where I’m from, is a town in a huge world greater than I can know,” I sighed. “It was swallowed by the Darkness, so the group of us that’s survived is living in Holl- Radiant Garden,” I corrected myself. “It was called Hollow Bastion, because of the huge castle, but the town was recently restored. It’s beautiful,” I smiled. “Lovely little place. We either stay up by Seth’s study, or at Merlin’s. Twilight Town is my favorite, though it’s been forever since I’ve visited,” I remembered; I went briefly, having met Eric, Hayner, Pence and Olette. However, I had been summoned back to then-Hollow Bastion, due to the mass amounts of Heartless. “Very peaceful town. Great view of the sunset,” I smiled. “There are all sorts, it’s incredible. A few worlds seem connected to this place, Earth…” I pondered. “It’s so peculiar. It’s like, they have a direct connection to it. Here. Land of the Dragons, where my friend Mulan lives. The Beast’s Castle is connected, too. So is Port Royal, where my pirate friends reside,” I smirked. “Atlantica seems connected to the ocean, it’s so strange.”

“So it’s all connected?” Eddie laughed. “Who would have figured, huh?”

“So tell me about this one,” I smiled.

“This is Camp Half-Blood,” Eddie explained, “it’s located in New York, and it’s a camp for demigods; children of a mortal human and one of the gods or goddess so well known in Greek mythology.”

“Interesting,” I nodded. “That explains why Olympus Coliseum and the Underworld are so close to this world,” I noted.

“So… you’re not surprised?” Eddie laughed. “Most people are.”

I shrugged. “It takes a lot to surprise me. I’ve… seen a lot,” I decided on. He didn’t need to know how old I was, or my history. I chose for that to remain a secret. “So who’s your parent? Poseidon?” He nodded.

“Does the cabin make it a little obvious?” he joked. I let out a chuckle.

“Just a bit,” I winked.

A window shattered, and we both turned to look at the creature that had burst through; it was a group of Heartless, Neo-Shadows, and Minotaur flashed into my hand, Eddie surprised. I managed to kill them with one swing, Eddie’s eyes just widening even more.

“What the hell are those things?!” he asked. “They’ve been crawling all over the place lately!”

“They’re called Heartless,” I observed my own sword; the long, curved blade, the color beautiful from the blend of metals. “They go after the darkness in peoples’ hearts,” I turned to look at Eddie. “And there is darkness in every heart.”

“Every heart?” he gasped. I nodded.

“All but seven. They’re called the Princesses of Heart. They’re all relatively helpless. Belle has a brain, but besides that they all annoy me,” I waved my hand, dismissing it. “Helpless little princesses from various worlds, for the most part. Jasmine is okay. Belle is smart, she knows what she’s doing. Alice is so young, so I can’t really pick on her. But the rest? Forget it,” I scoffed. “But the Heartless are born when a Heart goes out to Kingdom Hearts, I suppose. And when someone becomes a Heartless, they gain a Nobody.”

“Nobody?” Eddie questioned. I eyed him; I had to admit, he was pretty attractive. Swimmer’s body, handsome face. In his green eyes, he was recovering from grieving.

“They’re tricky,” I sat across from him again, resting Minotaur on the bunk I was sitting on. “They act like they can feel, like they have emotions. They can’t. They don’t. They completely lack Hearts, and are usually destined to just fade into the darkness.”

Did that make me a Nobody? I wasn’t the creation of a Heartless, but rather just a shell, left without a Heart.

But, I felt like I had one when I was around Eddie. The way he looked at me made me smirk. It made me feel like my pulse was rushing, like I could feel emotions again. The feeling was thrilling, and made me realize how much I had missed things before everything between Hojo, Lucrecia, Vincent and I happened.

Guns in hand, I was in the mood to kill. Despite what had just happened, I felt a sudden urge of strength, the adrenaline pumping through my veins more so than my own blood. I passed by one of the guys, who went to say hi to me but he noticed the guns in my hands and the fire in my eyes. He was smart, choosing not to say anything and running off. My steps were heavy yet swift, filled with the intention to destroy.

I figured it wouldn’t be too hard to find him. I had his belt, so it would only be right to return it to him. How I gave it back was never specified.

I found Lucrecia first, crying once she saw me, pleading my name. I wasn’t too happy with her either; maybe I should kill her, too.

She was apologizing, for what I didn’t know.

“Lucrecia, what are you even talking about?”

“I…” her annoying little voice went straight through me. “I’m trying everything I can to…”

“Lucrecia,” I glowered at her, “Where’s Vincent?”

She was crying all over again. “Please, don’t kill me. I’m trying so hard, just follow me.”

She took me down to the lab, and I was infuriated. I didn’t even know how to react; I was so tempted to shoot her, knock her unconscious, strangle her with the father of her child’s belt. I could feel the shaking in my chest, the site of my brother only fueling my anger. “How could you let this happen?!” I shouted at her.

“Hojo shot him,” she explained. Her voice just made me want to smack her even more. “There wasn’t much I could do, but I promise that I will not let him die.”

I shot something, unsure of what it was, and felt the ripping in my chest. It was as if something was tearing it apart, but it was more of an internal thing. I shot something else, also unsure of what it was, on a hunt to find Hojo.

Eddie noticed this. “Dawn? You okay?”

I snapped out of it, not even aware that I had fallen a bit into a trance. “Yeah,” I softly answered, in a voice I didn’t know was my own. My surprise was visible, my fingers gently touching my lips for a brief moment before I laughed it off.

“Undisclosed desires, huh?” he guessed. My crimson eyes met his green ones again, laughing a bit due to shock at how right he was.

He didn’t need to know everything. My smirk met my eyes as I answered him.

“You could be wrong.”

Eddie smiled. “Demons from the past, violence lurking in your heart?”

I just winked. “You’re prying.”

He thought of what to say next, his eyes and mine locking just as intensely as they did when my gun was to his face, only there was a sense of romanticism this time. “Mysterious?”

I smiled rather innocently. “I promise.”